Saturday, April 30, 2011

Some People

Have that moment early on when they feel that they are starting to grow up... when they feel special and in the beginning of something wonderful.

I don't think I'm one of them. It's not all bad though; less disappointment.

Really: what do I have to offer? To receive?

I want the words.

And that will end before I get them.

Kinda like Nanny McPhee.

Tuesday, April 26, 2011

Panther Asks

You didn't find this blog did you, Panther? You might've even forgot to look like you said you would.

I'm not mad; that's a rather hopeful situation.

This morning what you asked... oh wow. And a Cat was there too.

Asking me about Kitten... here's my answer.

Kitty is a very important person to me. She licked my wounds when I was bleeding. When you made me bleed too. Sorry; that was unnecessary. I didn't(?) mean it.

I don't like being separated from her.

The thing is, I do love her, just like I still love you. But not like that now; just the memory.

Why not now? Because it was hopeless.

Sound lame? It is. But that's the truth. And you know what? This should change. I was supposed to be the one who could do the impossible. I was supposed to challenge the world, but instead, I'm stuck here bound to its laws and leaving it.

I need to ATTACK. Take it HEAD ON.

Easier said than done.

The emotional change is done, but I need to remember this for the future; I'm young; this is the time to do emotional science, right?

And to the Royals: To sum up your attitudes: What Do You Mean Its Not Heinous

Sunday, April 24, 2011

Haven't updated in a while

I've thought about so much, but I don't want to share it. I don't know if I can post here anymore.

Tiger has someone new; that's the news.

Oh. And I just want to mention my Sister; she reads around... this part of the Blogger neighborhood and if she found out I was writing this, I would like her to have been mentioned.

It sometimes seems as if she hates me, but... she doesn't.

Sunday, April 10, 2011


And Friday I was screaming inside. But... I couldn't write.

I think I'm getting better now though. But I got House of Leaves yesterday, so how much better could I get?

Saturday, April 9, 2011

Well the best way to summarize yesterday

I sympathize with the Columbine kids.

They were unstable... they did as they did... they did wrong. And yet, sometimes their words are in me. I don't want to won't hurt anyone though. That would be horrible... it would only result in pain for me and others.

Friday, April 1, 2011


Not never... but not soon...

I just want to be able to understand my limits without being considered a failure...

I'm not alone. And when I am alone, so what? Everyone has their flaws.